Thursday, December 01, 2011

God Gave me you...

"God Gave me you for the Up's and Down's, God gave me you for the day's of doubt..."
I love this song so much right now, every time i hear it I can only think of how truly blessed I am at this point in my life. I don't know how i would have made it through the recent trials in my life without my amazing guy, and my amazing family {which now includes 32 new sisters... Chi Sigma for Life!!!!} I can't imagine my life without the people who help me get through each day! Things are far from simple, and life is still hard sometimes but I've got wonderful family, and wonderful friends who are willing to be there for me always. I have a hard time remembering sometimes that it's not as bad as it seems, that when the world seems to be against me and I can't quite find my way that not only do i have people in my life that love me, but i have a heavenly father who sent his son to die for MY sins, a loving God who wants me, who desires me, and who it is my Delight to serve! Well i know this post is shorter than most of my others... but i just had to share with yall!


I love my sweet sisters!
Peace, Love, and Passion (For Life... For Sisterhood... For GOD!)
Tesla

Monday, October 24, 2011

I Believe in...

So I found this quote on a friends blog a few weeks ago...
"I believe in pink. I believe that loving is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."
It really got me thinking, what do i believe in? This question is a loaded one... but thank you Audrey Hepburn for making me think...

1. I also believe in pink.
2. I believe in Jesus.
3. I believe that the right song can turn your day, week, month, and life around.
4. I believe that loving another person is the highest compliment, and the best thing that you can do.
5. I believe in high school sweet hearts {and i believe in my High school sweet heart, five years and going strong!}
6. I believe in my sisters (both my biological little sis and my sorority sisters)
7. I believe in Autism Awareness...{Autistic Children are special, amazing, wonderful people and anyone who hasn't had a chance to work with one should do so It's a life experience you won't soon forget I know I learned so much. If you want to help raise Awareness visit http://www.autismspeaks.org/}
8. I believe Depression affects more people than you realize, but it can be overcome.
9. I believe in laughter.
10. I believe in my family and friends
11. I believe in matching. {most of the time, and coordinating at all times}
12. I believe in Adoption.
13. I believe smiling when your sad makes you happier.
14. I believe that if you want something done right you have to do it your self.
15. I believe in sleepovers, and manicures.
16. I believe that your fingernails should always be painted.
17. I believe that you're never too old to sleep with a stuffed animal (I have a teddy bear named Max that my mum gave me when i was six).
18. I believe in headbands with flowers and bows on them.
19. I believe that a cupcake is the best way to make friends... everyone loves baked goods...
20. I believe that I only live once, so i might as well make the most of it.
21. I believe that heaven exists.
22. I believe miracles happen.
23. I believe there are truly bad people in this world, but the truly great ones outnumber them by far. They are just harder to find because all you notice is the bad ones.
24. I believe that road rage is a genetic disorder (thanks mom...)
25. I believe in hoping for the best, expecting the best, and modifying your plans when you get the worst.
26. I believe in chocolate.
27. I believe in running.
28. I believe in passion for the things you hold dear.
29. I believe in giving this life all you've got.
30. I believe in myself (the last, but possibly most important thing on this list.)

I enjoyed putting this together, and it's a lot harder than you think to put the things you believe in into writing. SO until next time... What do YOU believe in?
Peace Love and Passion (for what i believe)
<3 Nyki

Friday, September 23, 2011

Living Life with an Attitude of Gratitude...

There are so many things i am thankful for in my life, I realize that for the most part I am not as vocal about the things i am thankful for as i am about the things that I am upset or concerned about. Most of this blog has been dedicated to my rants and raves about people and things that upset me. I've decided that from now on i will write about something i am grateful for once a week.
I am thankful for my wonderful family, especially my amazing mum and step dad. They have been raising me right for most of my life, I am thankful for my job, I love it and every day i work there is a day that i have a smile on my face. I love arts and crafts and my new job lets me work in very very close proximity to everything i could possibly need to do my art projects. I am thankful for the wonderful girls that God has recently brought into my life, they are amazing and I am so blessed to call them my friends (and soon to be my sisters! <3 Love those girls sooo much). I am eternally grateful for the opportunity to attend college, and major in something i am very interested in, a chance that as a woman i would not have been given were i from many other countries in the world. I am thankful for my amazing boyfriend, who loves me and supports me even though we hardly get to see one another. He's my hero, and I pray for him daily as he goes on calls and helps to protect the people of Laurens County as a volunteer firefighter. What he does scares me to death, and i worry about him constantly (especially now that he's actually able to fight the fires i was less worried when he was just doing scene control and directing traffic around wrecks) Which brings me to my next gratitude, i am grateful for all our public servants, as well as our Military personnel. Our cops, firefighters, and soldiers put their lives on the line every day so that the rest of us can sleep at night. I am grateful for the hard working janitorial staff that were recently cut back at my school, they are needed and missed. Finally i am thankful for the teachers who are out there every day doing what i hope to soon be doing. YOU are my hero's and my inspiration. So until next time... I love you all, and hope that you will find something everyday that you can be thankful for. Peace, Love, and Passion (for giving thanks and loving my life) Nyki. K.

Love this pic... and since i'm both a proud Laurens County Resident, and a proud firefighters girl friends I'm gonna put it up here, along with the pic below which i'm pretty sure is from Station 21 (my baby's station <3)

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Vera Love...


I love Vera Bradley... It's beautiful and I love it bunches. I've always been a fan of big patterns and bright colors... my mom says i must get it from my Nana...but this particular pattern is my new favorite. It's called butter cup and I just thought i would share it with you all
Peace Love and Passion (for fashion) <3 Nyki

Tuesday, September 06, 2011

Thinking about things from a new perspective...

It always makes me a little sad when i think about the path my life could have easily taken. The easy path, the path of least resistance, the path to a future that i now wonder about. When this happens i am usually thinking about the fact that if i hadn't transferred last semester i would be a senior this semester, student teaching in the spring and graduating early from Anderson in June. Instead i'm a Junior with Senior credits, working my way through a new program with THREE years of college left to go, and looking forward to three {count them 1, 2, 3} years as a senior {LOL}... then i always realize i'm happier in my new major and even though i'm going to be a 5th year senior instead of a three year one I think life will be more what i want it to be now. I love history, and can't wait to be a high school history teacher in a few years. I'm happier at Lander even though i miss my friends and haven't had such an easy time making new one's here. I love Greenwood, I like that i just got a new job, and i like that my first clinical's in a highschool are going to be this semester. I can't wait. I'm grateful not to be an elementary major anymore, and i'm glad that i won't be teaching young children things like math, english, and science, I'll be able to focus on the subject i love and that means a great deal to me as a History buff and general fan of the subject. Other things in my life recently have caused me to adopt a new perspective on a lot of things. I have tried, unsuccessfully, not once but twice, to join a sorority at my new school, something that i have always wanted to do, but wasn't given the opportunity to do until last semester since my first college didn't have Greek life at all. I love the idea of Sororities, and i especially love everything that the one's here stand for. However after two failed attempts i will not be going through recruitment again. It's difficult for me to put myself out there for the judgement of others, and even harder for me to not let it bother me when things don't go my way. However through the last two failed attempts at recruitment i have grown to see even myself in a different light. I'm not bubbly, i don't have a winning personality, i'm smart, and i'm a little socially awkward {OK A LOT socially awkward} but i'm also a kind person, with a generous heart, and i care deeply for the people around me. However i also know that in the amount of time given to get to know one another during recruitment parties the only portion of my personality that shows through is my socially awkward side, no one gets the chance to see how i can be when i'm given time to get comfortable with them. It's something i'm going to have to live with until i can finally find a way to overcome it. But my new perspective has also shown me that I'm ok the way i am. I can't change who i am anymore than I can change the fact that i need glasses, or a zebra can change the fact that they have stripes. So here, at the end of my first blog with my new perspectives is a picture of me, happy and more than anything being nothing less than myself. {my mum took this two summers ago, and it is one of my favorite ones of me.}


Peace, Love, and Passion (for being different...)
Love always Nyki

not so patiently awaiting....

So very excited that in the next week i will be getting my super amazing Lilly Pulitzer agenda (in "Nice to See you") It should be here really soon!!!! I've been waiting patiently ever since i first ordered it on from Lilly almost a month ago. Unfortunately i had to cancel my order due to the fact that my agenda was not going to even be shipped until October, and that doesn't help me much. I was soo sad, then i got on Lifeguard Press, and found my same agenda, in stock, and ready to be shipped for the same price. I was soo very excited and it should be arriving any day now. I love the internet. It allows me to get things that i wouldn't otherwise be able to get. This is especially true for Lilly pulitzer items since i don't live anywhere near a store. So basically i'm just thrilled and am now a loyal shopper with Lifeguard press, i intend to use them for all my planner needs...
Peace, Love, and Passion (for Lilly!)
Love Nyki

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Can you relate?...

You sit in your towel after a shower because you're too lazy to get dressed. You and your best friend can say one word, and crack up. You hate when one string of your hoodie is longer than the other. You hate it when people think you like someone when you clearly don't. You hate it when your favorite song comes on, as you pull into the driveway. You feel like if you turn on the lights, you will be safe from anything. You push those little buttons on the lids of fast-food drinks. You laugh until people get hurt, then stop when you realize it's serious. You hate it when parents get serious about something funny you tell them. You hate when you tell a guy to shut up and they copy you in a higher voice. You pretend to sleep when your parents come in. You text the person next to you things that you can't say out loud. You hate when people in front of you walk really slow and you can't get past them. You're always tired no matter how much sleep you get. You stop the microwave before it hits 00:00 to avoid hearing the beeps. You use the "sup" head nod. You just did the nod after you read it. You hate when you are mad at someone and they make you laugh. You check the fridge every ten seconds to see if food magically appeared.

I found this on tumblr and couldn't help but think that it describes me more than perfectly. I do all of these things, multiple times a day and then some...
Peace, Love, and Passion (for being who you are)
<3 Nyki

Friday, June 03, 2011

Proud To Be Different...

I guess I like to consider myself to be Unique, an individual with my own sense of style, my own values and my own beliefs, I consider myself to be Unique, special even, but most people would just call me WEIRD. Weird, it's such a simple word when you think about it, two syllables, easy to say, but difficult to define. Most people would call anyone who isn't like them weird, but me, i think we are all weird in our own little ways, no two people are exactly the same, not even identical twins, so why do we put all this importance on being normal? If it were so important that people be "normal" we would have all been made the same, identical beings who looked the same, acted the same, and thought the same. It would be a really boring world. Me personally I LOVE being different from everyone else, i'm the only person in the world who is exactly like me and thats how i want it to stay.
Peace Love and Passion (for being who I am)
<3 Tesla Kanning
(P.S Just my little Rant for the day, real blogg post coming soon)

Thursday, April 28, 2011

"Best Embrace the Suck"...

Over my spring break i went to see the movie Beastly with my boyfriend on one of our date nights, it was a good movie and i really enjoyed it but the one line that stuck with me most out of the movie was this, "Best Embrace the suck". Watching the movie it didn't occur to me that there could be more than one way to take that phrase. But since then i've realized that embracing the suck isn't a bad thing,we should embrace the suck every single day we are fortunate to wake up, because even the things we think suck about our selves are pretty great. You may be overweight and self conscious like me, or have other things about yourself that you don't like but you should embrace them. Change them if you feel you have to, but don't let them rule you, rule them and rock them. If i have learned anything lately it's that you have to love you for you, if you don't then you can't truly love others, and you can't fully accept that another person could love you. So please believe me when i say it is fully time to embrace the suck! I can fully understand why it's hard for people my age, especially teenage girls to embrace the things inside of them that aren't perfect, television and movies, hell even real life sometimes, projects this image of what is beautiful, and that picture often doesn't measure up to reality. Beautiful is the blonde haired blue eyed head cheerleader with a bad attitude who's dating the quarter back of the football team, perfection is a size two, or even worse a size zero model that can rock all those skinny styles like no one's business. And sure both of these girls may be beautiful, but they aren't the only ones. We are all beautiful, women and men, long hair or short, tall, short, fat, skinny, black, white, brown, we are all breathtakingly beautiful in the eyes of the Lord, and we should be beautiful in our own eyes. I know i'm just one person, and lets face it no one reads this blog but I also have some pretty powerful allies in changing the way people, especially young girls view themselves. Tuesday nights episode of glee is one example of this, actually the entire show does a great job of teaching self acceptance and love, but the Born this way episode really hit the nail on the head. The fact that they all had to sit down and write something they disliked about themselves on a shirt and then wear, and own what they disliked was really great. When we can admit what it is we dislike about our selves we are better able to accept them, and better able to love ourselves in the end... so i'd just like to quote lady gaga to close
"I'm Beautiful in MY way cause GOD makes no mistakes, i'm on the right track baby i was born this way, don't hide yourself in regret just love yourself and your set, i'm on the right track baby i was born this way!"

Peace, Love, and Passion (for movies)
<3 Nyki