Wednesday, September 26, 2012

On Wednesdays we wear...

So Excited to be back blogging on the regular after my little bloggy hiatus {AKA months of being a bad blogger} And to get this little bloggy madness started off right with a new segment called "On Wednesday's we wear..." a weekly fashion post whose cute little name is inspired by one of my favorite movies {Mean Girls Dur},

I love love love fashion, but I'm a bit of a baby when It comes to fashion, I wear my jeans and tees on a pretty regular basis but I'm working on that... and this post is a way to help me with my "denim problem" as one of my sweet friends likes to call it :) I really hope you will all come back each week for a little bit of my fashion attempts... and a lot of my fashion fails :) Love you all to the moon and back :)
Peace, Love, and Passion {and on Wednesdays We Wear Pink...} Love Always Tesla ;)

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Fireproof and Waiting...

"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners christ died for us" - Romans 5:8

So I know the title of this post probably seems pretty random to y'all, but I promise you I will get to the point really quickly. Lately I've been feeling pulled in a lot of different directions, life has been stressful, and difficult, and I've been having a terrible time keeping myself in His word. Which is a shame because when you are struggling is when it is most important to make sure you are in God's word daily. However on Sunday afternoon I realized that even if I'm not in His word like I should be, God is still present in my life, still in control, still powerful, and he still knows exactly what I need.
Flash Back to Sunday around lunch time, I'm sitting in my room, cleaning, talking to the guy and procrastinating big time on doing anything productive (like homework) when I just had to hear this song. And when I say had to I mean NEEDED to hear, it was a get on youtube NOW and find this song or you're going to loose it kind of need... So I did just that, I took my happy little behind to youtube and typed in "While I'm Waiting by John Waller" {an amazing song, and if you haven't already heard it you should go and find it now and listen before you read any further} I found the song, clicked on the first video I saw and listened. THe first video however just so happened to be a clip form the movie Fireproof, that just happened to have the song in it.

{Here's the video BTW}
At this point Boyfriend is like "Tesla what are you doing?" So i explain to him about the movie and much to my surprise he wants to watch it {I know my guy wanting to watch a movie with me that isn't about a Car or War amazed me too, but please read on} and the strangest thing happened, he actually enjoyed the movie. I say all this to make a point I promise I think we both realized that at times our relationship needs a Love Dare, and there are a lot of similarities between our relationship and Caleb and Katherines in the movie {aside from the obvious he's firefighter one} and that is a scary realization, but I also know that seeing it is a good thing because then we can work on it, and we can work on it together, as a couple.

Back to the point I really wanted to make, and that was about love! I think sometimes we get so wrapped up in whether or not this person or that person loves us? Are we good enough? Do we matter? Are we special? {I struggle with ALL of these daily so it's ok if you do too, we can be struggle buddies :)} But what I love about the verse at the top of this post {Romans 5:8} is how reassuring it is... God loves us, and how do we know? we know God loves us because he sent his son to die for us, a Son that he loved very much, and he was willing to give up his child so that the rest of us could know him one day. I'd say that's love in a big way. THE ULTIMATE LOVE , and if we have that then what else really matters?
Peace, Love, and Passion
Love Always Tesla

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Weekly Wrap Up...

Ya'll, This has been one more amazing week. Stressful, hectic, and at times painful but wonderful none the less. I've had not one but two sleepless nights because of school work, a few catastrophes, two quizzes, one amazing night, and my first ever trip to Hooters... That's enough of the words... lets get to the pictures :)

Thursday, September 20, 2012

How is this even possible...

Ladies, and Ladies... cause lets face it no Gentlemen follow my baby blog :)
I just wanted to let you all know... That it is 7:00 am and I am completely ready for school! And I'm Actually cute, wearing makeup with dry hair and don't even have class until 9:45... oh the wonders of all nighters!
Heres a pic for your enjoyment :)
- Please ignore the mess in the background... It's recruitment week and my room is feeling the strain of it all...
Peace Love and Passion... Love Always Tesla

Monday, September 10, 2012

The Day I {Almost} Gave Up on Sororities...

Allow me to preface this post with a Statement, I am not bitter, I don't hate Greeks {in fact I LOVE the girls i know in Greek Sororities, they are amazing} But this post is not necessarily 100% Pro Greek, It's my experience and mine alone. Just sharing and I in no way want this to influence anyones decision not to Rush a sorority. In many ways the times i went through recruitment were so rewarding, I learned a lot and I've grown a LOT! I owe that to my experiences. However...
For those of you that regularly read my blog, you know that I am a member of a great Non-Greek Sorority on my College's campus, and that I love said sorority and my sisters more than anything. That said, today is the one year anniversary of the day that very nearly caused me to give up on the idea of sororities all together. Today my friends is Bid Day at my school, the culmination of three tough days of Recruitment through which dozens of girls find their home each year. Needless to say I was not one of these Girls... Last year was my Junior year of college, my first full year at my current school and despite having been rejected by a sorority that i loved the previous spring I decided it was time to try again. I signed my happy little behind up for Formal Rush in the fall, bought the perfect outfits, perfected my smile, laugh, and conversation, learned how to put on makeup and look people in the eyes when i talked to them {I have always been painfully shy when i meet new people so this was a huge step for me} and i arrived on Campus ready for a new year, and more than ready to take on Recruitment just knowing that this year i would find my home. I was secretly hoping that the sorority that had rejected me the year previous would decide they wanted me this time, but i went into the first day with an open mind, i would give all three a chance and who ever wanted me I would be more than happy to call that Sorority home, to call those girls my sisters.
This was me on the first day of formal recruitment, i know i looked terrible, my new hair cut was not doing what I wanted, my makeup wasn't cooperating, and it was literally 100 degrees outside so I was melting but I made my way through the day, fell in love with Two of the Sororities and went home that night feeling confident, our Rho Chi's had done everything they could to make us feel comfortable and make this as pleasant for us as possible, mine happened to be a friend i had made the previous semester when I had rushed. I left that night feeling good, however the next day did not bring the excitement I had been hoping for. When I arrived for day two i was given the sheet with the houses that had asked me back for round two, much to my surprise {mainly because we had been told that they were only cutting people who didn't meet the GPA requirement first round, and I had a 4.0 GPA} I had only been invited back to one house. I held back my tears and went through with the day anyway. After all this was the sorority i had wanted to join all along, the one I had loved since I rushed the previous year, the one I had my heart set on, and they hadn't cut me so that must mean they wanted me too. I was hopeful, the day went well, I had made it to Pref Night the year before and I was optimistic, but like everything else in life Recruitment threw me for a curve. In stead of spending the next night getting to know the sisters better at the Preference Ceremony I was lying in my bed crying my eyes out into a tissue, eating ice cream and watching a sad movie on TV. {Typical girl behavior.} That morning my Rho Chi had called to let me know that they weren't offering me a invitation to preference night, my rush experience was done, i hadn't even made it as far the second time as I did the first. I was heart broken. I spent that night like a hermit in my room. Dreading the next day, the day that all girls look forward to at the end of their recruitment period, BID DAY. The day where you get your letters, the day you find your home. But for me it was just the day that I almost gave up. I was crushed, I had convinced myself that I would never fit in, that I would never find those sisters I had wanted for so long. I swore of Sororities and had told the girls I knew who were in the Sorority i wanted in, including my friend the Rho Chi that I was never going to rush again. It hurt too much, the rejection, feeling like you weren't wanted, like you weren't good enough. I said I was done. But then a Funny thing Happened...
I saw a flyer on the way to chemistry class, for a Christian Sorority... And I was skeptical, heck I was downright afraid. But I decided to go to the interest night anyway. And I loved it, I loved everything about it. I decided that first night that I had found my home, and I haven't looked back since. I guess maybe all along God was telling me that he had other plans for me. I LOVE being in a Sorority, I love my friends in other Sororities, and yes bid day still gives me little pangs of pain in my heart because It does hurt. But I am so grateful for all I learned from trying. But in the end I believe that All the pain was worth it... I found my home, I found my sisters... So just for the sake of wrapping this up... Here's a picture of my Sisters, my family, my friends, my home.