Monday, March 30, 2015

The Post I Don't Know How to Write...

Tuesday March 24, 2015 my wonderful Papa went to heaven to be with the Lord, he was 68 years old. He was a wonderful man, a great father, and an even better grandpa. I consider myself beyond lucky to have been able to know him these past 23 years. To know him was an amazing experience, and I can't imagine this world without him in it.

He was so much more than just my grandfather, he was my friend. One of the few people I could be myself with, someone who always listened when I needed an ear, and offered advice when I didn't know what to do. He always knew what I needed to hear, I think that was because we were so much alike. Both fiercely opinionated, stubborn, and so often far too serious for our own good. My papa got me. Much like my mom gets me... makes sense since the things we have in common seem to have come from him. She doesn't see it, but I do. It breaks my heart into a million pieces when I think about the fact that my children will never know that sparkling wit, that contagious smile, I never imagined he wouldn't be here to see my children that thought never once crossed my mind.

I could go on all day, telling you the hundreds of things that I loved about him, all the many things I will miss, all the infinite number of ways my life won't be the same without him in it. But I'll just leave it in the words of someone far wiser than I ...

"The life of the dead is placed in the memory of the living" - Cicero

Because as long as those of us who love you are alive, you will be too. In our thoughts, our stories when we tell our children and grand children about the man you were, in our memories, and my mothers beautiful eyes.

**Side Note: I've been struggling over the past few days with this post, wondering what I should write, or if I should even be writing it at all, after all despite the fact that I have this blog, and share so much with all of you there are still parts of me that I hold back, the biggest part of that has to do with family. I decided this morning that I would be remiss if I didn't write this post because you guys deserve to know what's going on with me, and my Papa deserves some sort of memorial on my Blog because he was the single biggest support of me I've ever had, he was a big Tesla fan and you should know about him.**

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